Like An Anchor

I lost a hundred eighty pounds over a 24 hour period.

Yes I did.

It was a long time coming.

I had to lose it.
it was detrimental to my psyche.

 I feel lighter.
 Much lighter.

I lost a hundred eighty pounds over a 24 hour period.

Now that I'm not carrying that heavy load on my back.

the weight,
like an anchor isn't pulling down on my heart anymore

I can breathe more easily

I can now move around and live my life more freely
without

the burden of trying or saying or doing what was necessary to please or appease 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year.

I lost a hundred eighty pounds over a 24 hour period.

I can run,
skip,
dance

without
caring about meeting her needs
while my wants or needs were being ignored
or belittled.

I lost a hundred eighty pounds over a 24 hour period.

I love her,

but

I intend not to gain them back.

I lost a hundred eighty pounds over a 24 hour period.

I've carried that extra weight my entire life

now, i'm getting used to the light-ness

and i love it.

I forgot how tall I was

I love how freedom feels.


--alexcasey