New Position

u appear to me

in my dreams

you disappear

clashing in my stubborn thoughts;

I’m

set in my ways,

but

if

you

really care

you will

dig deep

        deep enough

        deep deep enough

u will find some flexibility

in me

loving you-

I do love you.

I’m not pretending not to care.

if given another chance

i will find another way

to love you

i’ll change up

will move through

underneath the flesh of starving talk

over

through 

the movement

under

will champion the pain the fierceness the attitude the mistrust the hurt

looking

for understanding .

          to look for the love

for me

you say

exists.

i will find a new way to love you

i will find a  new position