(and) there you were

in my search for someone to complete me
(i prayed for you
) & in my search for that missing piece
         to the puzzle that was my life
( i prayed for you
)  beyond laughter
             happiness
             on the outside looking in
             and watching friends take for granted
             what I hold so precious
(i prayed for you
)       I am asked for advice
            what to do to fix a relationship
            what to do to maintain one
            or attain one,
            and being shown gratitude for telling and doing the right things
(i was alone, and i prayed for you
        i needed substance, and
(i prayed for you
)       not knowing that you would appear
        before me
        looking at me
        as if I were the answer to your prayers
                as well
        as you were/are to mine:
        in my search for
        someone to step up to the plate
        to, at the very least, not show indifference
        towards me
        and to care enough to want to fight for me
        though I am opposed to violence
(i prayed for you
)       & there you were,
        with someone else.
        I knew I had to fight to get you.

        I wonder why it took so long to find you?
        Was God waiting for a time in my life
        When I would appreciate you more?
        He was right.

I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed  and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed and

here you are
(Thank You) 

-- alexgeorge

get happy

Instead of looking,
                    (and looking and looking and looking and-
                                                )

I’m going to find a way to have fun.

perhaps

someone will see me

&

will wonder

why I’m so happy

&

will want to be a part of it.

       --alexgeorge

You aint strong enough

you burn crosses

while I sleep

I don’t care,

I won’t weep.

nothing it seems,

you won’t try,

but you will not

make me cry.

see, you aint strong enough.

try to stab me

in my heart

your hatred

won’t tear

me apart.

I’ve been around,

I know the game.

hatred is hatred

by any name.

see, you aint strong enough.

despite my attempts

to live my dreams,

you try real hard

to bust the seams.

you try real hard

to show concern,

but the crosses,

I’m told,

are the crosses you’ve burned

see, you aint strong enough.

(try harder next time)

It

what have we here

(    finally   i

    have seen

the other side and the dark-

ness thereof.

of you.

there. I know you now. 'cause

i shone a flashlight. secretly-yes,

indeed a flashlight I shone.

finally.

seeing through your best disguise,

exposing what others see,

the YOU       ) well, well, well.

(     looks like the knife that was lodged in my back has your initials on it          ) my friend,

oh buddy,

oh pal,

what have we here ?

 --alexgeorge,    written when I was 16.   I found it today. How appropos, considering another backstabbing by a friend just occurred recently.

i made room

for you;

an opening
a spot
reserved for you
though you have no name yet
I made for you
in my heart/ an
open for business sign
Dangling
/ invisible
for others

for your eyes only
that you might see as your rightful place
like a thousand suns
the heat
converging into
1;
& the door is already open
you will see it
and
know.

                    --alexgeorge


--alexgeorge

sit down, but don't get comfortable

love,

now that you’re here (again, I think

) if it’s you,

then sit down,

but don’t get comfortable.

i wanna get to know you.

i wanna have a heart to heart

i wanna know if what I heard is true.

but first,

i wanna know how you found me?

i had my number changed to a non-published number.

quit my job-

gave no notice.

moved to a different country in the middle of the night-

left no forwarding address.

i even cancelled my credit cards.

i told no one.

assuming you are who you say you are,

i wanna know why u took so long to get here?

i’ve been deceived before by others

who have pretended to be love

for some personal gain

so, before I allow myself to get excited

before I wake up tomorrow morning

with you on my mind

before people tell me they see a glow about me,

understand why I’m cautious.

so,

sit down

but don’t get comfortable.

let’s have a conversation

talk to me.

and be honest.

please

--alexgeorge

Right Here

From experience,


there will always be some1
who will be taller
leaner
richer
faster
stronger
maybe even better looking than me
but I can’t be worried.
I won’t be worried.
I won’t look over my shoulder.
I know my worth;
I’m not the best,
I’m not perfect,
but you will find me doing
what others in your past have failed to do:
 striving
                always
 to be the best that I can be
to be perfect
for you.

Thank you

(

for
helping
me 
)
.
--alexgeorge