i made room

for you;

an opening
a spot
reserved for you
though you have no name yet
I made for you
in my heart/ an
open for business sign
Dangling
/ invisible
for others

for your eyes only
that you might see as your rightful place
like a thousand suns
the heat
converging into
1;
& the door is already open
you will see it
and
know.

                    --alexgeorge


--alexgeorge

sit down, but don't get comfortable

love,

now that you’re here (again, I think

) if it’s you,

then sit down,

but don’t get comfortable.

i wanna get to know you.

i wanna have a heart to heart

i wanna know if what I heard is true.

but first,

i wanna know how you found me?

i had my number changed to a non-published number.

quit my job-

gave no notice.

moved to a different country in the middle of the night-

left no forwarding address.

i even cancelled my credit cards.

i told no one.

assuming you are who you say you are,

i wanna know why u took so long to get here?

i’ve been deceived before by others

who have pretended to be love

for some personal gain

so, before I allow myself to get excited

before I wake up tomorrow morning

with you on my mind

before people tell me they see a glow about me,

understand why I’m cautious.

so,

sit down

but don’t get comfortable.

let’s have a conversation

talk to me.

and be honest.

please

--alexgeorge

Right Here

From experience,


there will always be some1
who will be taller
leaner
richer
faster
stronger
maybe even better looking than me
but I can’t be worried.
I won’t be worried.
I won’t look over my shoulder.
I know my worth;
I’m not the best,
I’m not perfect,
but you will find me doing
what others in your past have failed to do:
 striving
                always
 to be the best that I can be
to be perfect
for you.

Thank you

(

for
helping
me 
)
.
--alexgeorge

Now that you're back

You have left me

a

lone

and

while

alone

I faced the music

I listened

for the first time

to the lyrics

that hit so close to home

and inspired

me

made me smile

again

made me laugh

made me aware

that there is life

after you

as there was

before you.

now you are back with your confident smile—

                                                                                        ----but I have my own now.

Thank you. 

Afrodisiac

when i first saw you
something in me clicked
as if something was out of place
like an old al green song I had never heard before;
somehow I knew the harmony.
i didn't say a word,
but i touched your hand
and suddenly I am  back to a time when our great grandparents were conceived
-fertilized forcefully by the seed of some european plantation owner,
or locksmith,
or minister--
you're crying,
but your tears are falling from my eyes as well
and I try to change the subject by recalling
 the memory of  secretly meeting you in the pantry of a very large mansion in West Memphis,
us kissing and holding each other in the darkness as quickly and as much as we could before getting caught  by one of the other house niggers.
thinking he was doing the right thing,
until he got auctioned off and traded in for 2 younger house niggers and a young girl
a week later.
and i didn't say another word.
we don't know each other
but we both shared the fact that our parents were born from the children of mothers  that couldn't sit at the front of the bus,
tired from a long day of cleaning houses and raising kids,
they came home too tired to raise their own
and i didn't say another word.
our blackness unifies us under the same differences for which we are mistreated by the mainstream.
you're crying again,
but I don't want you to cry
I need you to be strong because you are the mother of our future children
and in case I get lynched  for being accused of even looking in the direction of a white girl
//
my sons
my daughters will need you
I need you to be the strong beautiful brave black woman you were before during and after
me....
but that won't happen
I ain't goin no where
because I'll be looking in the opposite direction.

lookin' at you.

and helpin' you.
lookin' at you.

I suppose

about the lips
those lips /your
lips
you/they
amaze me
those    lips
can multitask:
there is no imitation of love
of life in those lips
how
they
have nibbled
met
whispered
sweet
reminders
i am your man
your man
a man
yours
they’re on the real:
rising above my earlobes
up
through the ear
u carress my lips with a tender
                                       delicate softness
                                       after
tearing
some     1  else
down to size
like a mother cat
protecting her kittens
&
without your having to say the words,
you protect that which you love-
I suppose that would be
Me

Let's get lost

i was listening to your chet baker cd
my funny va-
lentine
2 day
on the way home;
not listening
but blasting it so loud
so loud
i couldn’ t hear myself think
about the stressful moments of 2day
then
chet’s trumpet said letsgetlost—
                                             --something in the trumpet
                                             --something in the song
              made u pop in my head
& i smiled
4 the first time
since I woke up this morning
& saw you
next to me.
& i smiled.
4 the first time

(
    can’t wait 2 get home 2 u

singing

the chaka khan version

)

--Alexgeorge